Now that it’s the middle of February, I feel like I can talk about my 2017 goals without feeling like some schlub who makes a goal and quits after two weeks. At least that’s what I am telling myself, instead of actually admitting my inability to do anything on time.
To be fair, life is a little crazy right in our household at the moment.
However, just because I am not writing about my goals for Spruce Knits doesn’t mean that I am not thinking about them and putting them into practice. I am tired of sitting on the sidelines and waiting for the confidence and bravery to go out and make life happen for me. So here we are.
For 2017 the focus for Spruce Knits is : Grow. Explore. Advocate.
I have a love hate relationship with “growing”. I loathe change. Either that or I have an over developed sense of safety. I suffer from severe, and often debilitating, anxiety. This anxiety and fear of the unknown has stopped me in the past from pursuing my goals. Unfortunately, the fear doesn’t go away when you have to face something tough. The only way out of fear is through fear. Ugh, I hate it. I am getting sweaty just thinking about it.
The only way to grow is to reach out and hope that I can catch myself. I’ve proven so many things to myself, time to get busy. I have a Master’s Degree, dammit. The imposter syndrome needs to go, or take a back seat.
This year I am going to expand my limits by writing more patterns for you and writing more articles. I am going to submit my writing for publishing. I am going to throw everything out there and see if anything sticks. If it doesn’t, I will keep writing. Words are magic. It might take time to find the spark of light, but (like with knitting) we get better with practice.
Similar to writing more, I am going to read more. In April Spruce Knits is starting a book club (more on that later). I am going to read books that are meant to challenge and inspire. I am taking myself back to college, in a sense. This is a growth project that I am incredibly excited to share with you.
I am going to try new knitting techniques, perhaps some that I’ve been avoiding. Intarsia, Brioche, different sweater designs, exc. The only way to get better is to try things you’ve never done. Maybe, I’ll finally learn to crochet. That would be an interesting day. Ha.
In terms of Spruce Knits, I see this place growing into what it is meant to be: A place for knitters to knit patterns with advocacy in mind. I know that the world is incredibly overwhelming for a lot of us right now. When we put needles to yarn we can do so much. This world needs so much. It’s worth putting fear of the unknown aside, (will they enjoy my patterns??!!) and just write what needs to be made and hope that someone somewhere catches it and creates something beautiful and meaningful.